the eve of New Years eve...

So It's time I think about resolutions.   never follow through with them, but it's something to do at midnight while i'm watching Bridget Jones's Diary for the millionth time. So here it goes.

1. organize into ONE book, all my recipes I use on a monthly basis. And put all Christmas baking into it's own section so I can find them next year!

2. Lose some weight. I'm not going to put an amount, too much pressure ;) but more than 20lbs would be lovely.

3. Shadow box both kid's birth announcement/ID bracelet/first hat/hospital stuff.  It's long overdue.

4. Finish Birdie's scrapbook.  Poor thing has a few pages, her older sister has 30+ pages!! Get on it!

5. Lay off the cans of pop. *sigh.....year after year I say this

6. Get a haircut.  Not doing it myself in the bathroom mirror like the past year, actually make an appointment and pay someone! *ugh the thought of paying kills me, after doing it for a career for 17+ years, but it's a little uneven in the back, heehee*

7. Learn to crochet. Sounds like a granny thing, but i'm in need of new dishcloths, true story!

8. Print the photos off the computer, or at least burn a new disc. No, print them off and put them in an album.  My oldest DD has 2 photo books, youngest 0.  bad mommy!

9. put at least ONE photo of the baby up in the house.  The entire hallway is her older sister, been to lazy to print off new pictures in the past 18 months and add her to the family wall.  Again...BAD MOMMY! Sounds horrible as I type this, I might have to do this one tomorrow, and not even wait for New Years!!

10. Do at least ONE thing i've pinned on Pinterest per month.

There. Those don't seem hard, now let's see if my memory can remember all these things.  Chances are I won't, but I will try to check back here once in awhile to see what I wrote!

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!!

Why hello there fall

I haven't blogged in 6 months. I've been too busy, which I guess is a good thing! 2 kids sure keeps me a heck of a lot busier than the golden days of just one! And I can't even remember the days without kids waking me up at 7am. Hmmm what was it like to have a "day off"?  I'm pretty sure I wasn't using my time wisely that's why God gave me these babies to show me HAHAHA you sat around too much being lazy and spending to much money on yourself, voila! here are some babies, get to work now biatch! lol. I'm sure God doesn't really talk like a sailor like I do ;)

My oldest has started preschool. And yes, I cried...so much. So many tears actually that it was embarrassing. I'm sure the other parents at the preschool thought get your shit together woman! But she is 4 now and all grown up and leaving the nest (for 2.5 hours, 3 days a week)  It was more of a milestone for ME than for her! But it's a good preparation for next year...the dreaded kindergarten all day, 5 days a week.  I will be a wreck!  I've already told her father's boss that he has to have that 1st of school off work to help me go take her to school....and I will be taking tissues for sure! My mother says i'm too hormonal and nobody should cry this much, get your hormones checked!!  bahaha oh silly mothers!!  Maybe this is the start of mental-pause, who knows! ;)

My baby is now 16 months old already, time needs to slow the f*ck down! Excuse my language. She is slowly walking, i'm sure  she'll be running soon enough, I am enjoying the fact that she's in no rush to walk...no worries girl, what's the hurry!?  We always want our kids to be the best.. "oh MY CHILD can say the entire alphabet before he's 2, and MY CHILD was running by the time he was 10 months, Oh yeah, well MY CHILD can drive a stick shift at 3!"  Parents bug me. People bug me who am I kidding!  I say let kids be kids, if they don't want to talk til they are 10 who can blame them? Enjoy the peace and quiet while it lasts!

My oldest is at preschool right now, and the baby is in her crib sleeping.  I really should be cleaning but it is good for my sanity to have some alone mommy time and just drink a coffee and relax. There will aways be cleaning, it never ends.  And if you have no children you have no idea what i'm talking about.  There isn't one second, not one second my entire house is clean at once....not with 2 small kids. One day if you have kids, you will see what I mean. So i'm learning to embrace the mess, and tidy when I can. Which will be after I type this out.

I didn't go back to work after maternity leave.  Do I regret it you ask...  F*ck no!  I miss a few things like money in the wallet, other adult conversation, and the need to go shopping for new work clothes.  But I LOVE that I can stay home and raise my babies.  It means sacrifice though, one income means no movie dates, no dinner's out unless you count $5 cheap pizza pizza or Drive-thru, and certainly no extra money for me to go buy myself new clothes "just because".  But I get to kiss all the boo-boo's, and wipe all the tears (and snot lately, thanks preschool germs) and I get hugs and kisses all day. I get to take my girls on outing all over town, and watch them learn new things.  I get to hear the baby's new words, and see her trying so hard to walk. I get to watch them grow and learn and no job on earth is better than that.  So one day i'll get a job somewhere again, but until then, I am very content at home. I do missing shopping and adult convo though. :)

The only major problem I have in life at the moment is I can't seem to upload books to the e-reader. Not sure what i'm doing wrong, so i have nothing to read and i'm going crazy!  I love reading, and this technical glitch is making me rethink this e-reader thing.  Something to be said about good old fashioned paper books!

Well fall is for sure here, rain and winds. I don't like the heat much, so I'm ok with some storms as long as I don't lose power.  It used to be romantic when the power went out, i'd break out the candles and make some snacks, cozy up under a blankie and snuggle.....but when it goes out now with 2 kids, all hell breaks loose!  Just not as fun anymore!

Time to finish my coffee....or I should say my International delight creamer with a  splash of coffee ;)

I'm 37

I still can't wrap my head around the fact that I turned 37 years old yesterday. I feel 23, seriously!  My life isn't where I want it to be, so now it's time to rewrite my life story. Time to change lanes I think. Not that I have a bad life, I know I have two beautiful little girls now, I am talking about inner personal goals I've been pushing to the side for many years, almost afraid of TRYING to reach for them. I woke up with a little more clarity than normal, and I said no to the coffee...we'll see in 3 hours if that was a good decision or not hahaha.

Happy New Year 2012

Happy new year, I wish you health and happiness for this year!!

I have had no time to write. well, ok i've had lots of time to tend to my castle and other games on my fave social media site, but thats just something to pass the time when i'm watching tv. (yes I prefer to be doing 2 things at once)

So here is my new years resolutions...i don't normally make them, but I NEED to this year:

1. NO MORE POP!  I drink 2 cans a day, so thats it....no more!! Not even diet!
2. Lose 5 lbs.  Here's my theory. If I say lose 40+lbs like I want to lose and then I don't...i'll beat myself up over it and be sad.  However, if I aim for 5lbs....then another 5lbs....and so on, I think that's more achievable!
3. be more patient with my family. I'm so tired these days and just cant sleep at night anymore, so i am not as nice as I used to be these past few weeks.
4. TRY to sleep at night! Seriously its becoming a problem.....even though my 6 month old baby sleeps the night from midnight-8am, I for some reason cannot.
5. Scrapbook!!  I made a nice first year Scrapbook for my oldest daughter, now the baby is 6 months old, and I have to get going on hers.  Plus I think the one night a week creative outlet will be good for my soul, and allow some quiet ME time.

Hopefully I can find the energy and thought process to write here more. Even when no one is reading it, it makes me feel good to put it out into the universe.