Why hello there fall

I haven't blogged in 6 months. I've been too busy, which I guess is a good thing! 2 kids sure keeps me a heck of a lot busier than the golden days of just one! And I can't even remember the days without kids waking me up at 7am. Hmmm what was it like to have a "day off"?  I'm pretty sure I wasn't using my time wisely that's why God gave me these babies to show me HAHAHA you sat around too much being lazy and spending to much money on yourself, voila! here are some babies, get to work now biatch! lol. I'm sure God doesn't really talk like a sailor like I do ;)

My oldest has started preschool. And yes, I cried...so much. So many tears actually that it was embarrassing. I'm sure the other parents at the preschool thought get your shit together woman! But she is 4 now and all grown up and leaving the nest (for 2.5 hours, 3 days a week)  It was more of a milestone for ME than for her! But it's a good preparation for next year...the dreaded kindergarten all day, 5 days a week.  I will be a wreck!  I've already told her father's boss that he has to have that 1st of school off work to help me go take her to school....and I will be taking tissues for sure! My mother says i'm too hormonal and nobody should cry this much, get your hormones checked!!  bahaha oh silly mothers!!  Maybe this is the start of mental-pause, who knows! ;)

My baby is now 16 months old already, time needs to slow the f*ck down! Excuse my language. She is slowly walking, i'm sure  she'll be running soon enough, I am enjoying the fact that she's in no rush to walk...no worries girl, what's the hurry!?  We always want our kids to be the best.. "oh MY CHILD can say the entire alphabet before he's 2, and MY CHILD was running by the time he was 10 months, Oh yeah, well MY CHILD can drive a stick shift at 3!"  Parents bug me. People bug me who am I kidding!  I say let kids be kids, if they don't want to talk til they are 10 who can blame them? Enjoy the peace and quiet while it lasts!

My oldest is at preschool right now, and the baby is in her crib sleeping.  I really should be cleaning but it is good for my sanity to have some alone mommy time and just drink a coffee and relax. There will aways be cleaning, it never ends.  And if you have no children you have no idea what i'm talking about.  There isn't one second, not one second my entire house is clean at once....not with 2 small kids. One day if you have kids, you will see what I mean. So i'm learning to embrace the mess, and tidy when I can. Which will be after I type this out.

I didn't go back to work after maternity leave.  Do I regret it you ask...  F*ck no!  I miss a few things like money in the wallet, other adult conversation, and the need to go shopping for new work clothes.  But I LOVE that I can stay home and raise my babies.  It means sacrifice though, one income means no movie dates, no dinner's out unless you count $5 cheap pizza pizza or Drive-thru, and certainly no extra money for me to go buy myself new clothes "just because".  But I get to kiss all the boo-boo's, and wipe all the tears (and snot lately, thanks preschool germs) and I get hugs and kisses all day. I get to take my girls on outing all over town, and watch them learn new things.  I get to hear the baby's new words, and see her trying so hard to walk. I get to watch them grow and learn and no job on earth is better than that.  So one day i'll get a job somewhere again, but until then, I am very content at home. I do missing shopping and adult convo though. :)

The only major problem I have in life at the moment is I can't seem to upload books to the e-reader. Not sure what i'm doing wrong, so i have nothing to read and i'm going crazy!  I love reading, and this technical glitch is making me rethink this e-reader thing.  Something to be said about good old fashioned paper books!

Well fall is for sure here, rain and winds. I don't like the heat much, so I'm ok with some storms as long as I don't lose power.  It used to be romantic when the power went out, i'd break out the candles and make some snacks, cozy up under a blankie and snuggle.....but when it goes out now with 2 kids, all hell breaks loose!  Just not as fun anymore!

Time to finish my coffee....or I should say my International delight creamer with a  splash of coffee ;)